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Prison Blog

In which Possum recounts his experiences as an offender in the system.

Possum Bones is autistic. He has identified as a dirty kid in the past, and he’s attended multiple rainbow gatherings. He has several years left to serve in the Washington Correctional system.

He has been making art since he could sit up. He communicates better in writing than speech. If you are interested in the experience of an autistic person doing prison time, check out his Prison Blog. If you are a fan of comic art, underground/outsider music, Lovecraft, Clarke Ashton Smith, Murakami, Cixui Liu, etc.

Blog 11/23/17

They are not what they imagine themselves to be.  I imagine myself to be nothing, less even, so nothing I am.  People who cannot understand that will make their guesses.  To be that has been a majority painful experience.  To name myself, in the way that I mean others do would be to give in to a lie for the sake of what?  A sense of direction?  The child who says, "I'm going to be a fireman", the adult who identifies politically in one way or another. there is the box with the dead cat, before and after opening. The true self is the box before it was opened.  Before the ego has been forced to take action, before the mouth has been made to speak, the hand to write.  As I've said, to speak is to lie.  I hate to use this word because it sounds like a bullshit word, but if you must know it's Hebrew, Jewish mysticism:  Asiyah, the realm of action.  Isn't a lie just an idea before it has been spoken?  Remember there was a time before your linguistic programming.  For me I went back to that state not so long ago, 7 or 8 years, for a short time. There were no words in my mind and if I heard you speak, it would have been just sound.  I thought in memes.  I'm not sure what that dud for me but it helped reveal the absurdity of language in a way learning a new language never could have.  So getting back to what I was on about before, beware of thinking and of those who think "I am this", "I am that", "That's the type of man I am", "I am".  These kinds of thoughts not only separate you from the (however sad) universal equation, which can cloud your thinking, but they can also fragment your ego, limiting your thinking, limiting you from being everything.  So I might sound now like a cosmic bullshit artist but remember, this isn't something I made up to bolstera the foundation of some hackneyed personality matrix I've set up for myself.  This is meant as an attack on that very bad habit of human people.  Does human people sound redundant to you?  It doesn't to me.  Human is a set of behaviors I'd prefer to circumcise from people.  Actually, circumcision implies human was the natural, and peole was unnatural.  Well, I'm not sure about that because I'm maybe not the average baby, but I was born a people and never been human.

Elisa Carlson